Sunsets in my heart.

Why can’t I stop crying

Every single night

So many things






Everything feels real

Everything aches

Its too much

how am I to take it


Life is killing me

From the inside out

I cannot sleep

Nor can I stay awake

hovering in this space


Caught in emotions

that I am

Unable to deal with.


That time I fell in love with a city, again.

winds rushing through my hair, an ocean breeze that has followed me throughout my trip, at times making it hard on me to catch my breath and other times making me feel alive.

sunshine burning its way deep into my soul, trying to light all those dark spots that have been hiding in the shadow for too long.

laughter filling my ears, my eyes, my heart – reaching deep down below, awaking feelings that I thought lost forever.

houses hovering above me, leaning in, serving some shade where need be and cuddling in close with their neighbors – tall, slim, beautiful, their old facade is telling stories from far ago moments, each of them revived everytime you glance at their beauty.

Its been a minute, all I needed to madly fall in love with a city at the Amstel river.